Weekend Recap

First of all, I apologize for posting a depressing story on Thursday and then not following up with my regular rambling and bumpdate on Friday. Sometimes when you're ready to talk about something sad and life changing like that, you just have to go with it and get it out before you talk yourself out of it.

There are 3 reasons for no bumpdate on Friday.
1. My mom and  I had to be at my mother-in-law's house at 6am to set up for the rummage.
2. There really hasn't been any change from the week before
3. We totally didn't take a picture last week.

Onto my weekend...

Like I said, Friday I had to be at Danny's mom's at 6am. The sun was barely out when we got there and that's just not okay. What is also not okay when you have to be up that early is ordering 2 hashbrowns from McDonald's and them not ringing them up or giving them to you. Assholes. The rummage went really well Friday and we had A LOT of shit set out. I didn't really have a lot, I had maybe $130 worth of stuff, but my mom, sister-in-law and her mom had a lot. We were fairly busy the entire day.

After we got everything covered up with tarps, my mom and I headed to my house to get ready for dinner with my brother and his girlfriend. My brother was taking a class for his insurance license this week and he passed the test! So that called for celebration. I was so tired though. I think I nodded off in the booth at the mexican restaurant.

Saturday's wake up call was an hour later, which was normal for me. Danny's stepdad made us all breakfast.. bacon, eggs, biscuits, sausage... it was great. He's a sweetheart. The rummage on Saturday was a bust. Not busy at all for some reason and we still had a lot of stuff. I made a whole $10 on Saturday. I wasn't too pissed about it. Out of $130 worth of stuff, I sold $90. After the rummage, we all headed to our niece's dance recital and it was ADORABLE! So cute, in fact, that Danny is not open to the idea of Jellybean being a girl. haha. After the recital Danny treated me to the delicious snocone I've been wanting for about 2 weeks now. It was all I'd hoped for. It was also really nice to have a green mouth when I showed up at my best friend's graduation party. Oh well.

Yesterday I spent the afternoon with my friend Shelby in Indianapolis. We went to lunch at Chili's and then shopping. Old Navy had some cute shorts and cardigans so I picked up 2 pairs of shorts and a cardigan that will work for this summer. Next we went to the Container Store. That store is comprable to Disney World for someone with OCD. Our last shopping destination was Buy Buy Baby and holy shit, Batman, did they have a lot of stuff. I'm really glad I had a chance to go look around at things before its actually time to start registering, picking out stuff and making purchases. I definitely would have been overwhelmed if the day we registered was the first time I entered the store. After Buy Buy Baby we went to The Flying Cupcake.

My after lunch dessert is on the right and dinner is on the left.

 

 

The rest of my night was nothing but lounging on the couch watching tv. Real Housewives of NJ made me cry last night. I won't spoil the tear jerker moment for those that maybe haven't watched it.

 

 

All in all, it was a pretty good weekend. Hope you all had a great one too!! :)



The Day My Life Changed Forever

June 6, 2010. 3 years ago today. Just thinking about it creates a lump in my throat.

4 days after my brother signed to play college baseball.
2 days after he graduated high school.
1 day after his open house.

That morning I woke up early and headed an hour and a half north to a softball tournament for a 10 & under team that I was helping coach. I had talked Danny into sitting through 1, possibily 2 games. Thank God I did. We lost the 1st game and were done around 10:30 or 11am.  Thank God we did. Danny and I got in the car and headed back home. We were driving out in the country, making shapes out of the clouds in the sky and having a great time. I had no idea what was about to rock my world.

I got a text from my brother that read something along the lines of "get home now"  My mind immediately went to my Grammy and that she had a heart attack or something. I texted him back and said what is going on. 10 minutes went by and I never got a response. That was unlike Drew so I decided to call. I was very shocked when it was Grammy who answered. As soon as I heard her voice I knew who it was that was in trouble.

She asked how much longer til I was home. I said "an hour, what's wrong."  She said she'd tell me when I got there. I said "no you're going to tell me now" She responded that she didn't want to tell me while I was driving. I assured her that Danny was driving and she was going to tell me what was wrong right now. Again she told me no. Again I told her "yes you will"

She finally caved and said "Your dad is gone"
And life as I knew it was over.


It was like my mind intentionally interpreted the words wrong to spare my heart the pain for another second or 2 and before I knew it the words "where is he" came pouring out of my mouth. Her answer was "he's dead." What was said after that, I can't tell you. I don't remember.

What I do remember is struggling to tell Danny what happened as he demanded to know. I couldn't say the words. I finally got them out and started screaming. I screamed, kicked what I could, cursed, and cried. I don't know how long it lasted. I just know the hour long drive home felt like 6. Danny drove a consistent 85 mph home, passing cars in the left hand turn lane when necessary and got me home as soon as he could. I'm not sure he would have stopped if a cop tried to pull us over.

I was jumping out of the car while we were coming to a stop. I had to get to my brother. I had a gut feeling he was the one who found him and I was right. Being a protective big sister, if there is one thing I could change about that day, with the exception of bringing my dad back of course, it would have been me that found him. Not Drew.

Losing a parent is hard. If its expected or unexpected. If you're younger or older. If you're close or not close. Its hard. It sucks. And its the worst thing I've ever experienced.

This is the first time I've actually relived that day. I think about it very often, but never from beginning to end. As soon as I start to think about it, I stop myself. I don't like to "talk" about it, but I think writing about it helps. And someday, I'll write about why my life changed because of all this. That would require a series of posts. I'm not kidding you, the first year and a half after my dad's death was a whirlwind rollercoaster. Now that I'm ready to put it into words, it's going to take a while to sort it out.

June Goals - May Goals

Today I'm skipping Shannon's So What Wednesday. The only thing I've done in the last few days that I can say so what too is bribing myself to fold laundry with frozen yogurt... and then proceeded to put equal amounts of peanut butter and yogurt in the same bowl. What can ya do?

We're now 5 days into June and I have yet to put my goals for the month into writing or recap my May goals. Lets get too it.

 

June Goals

1. Walk 4x's a week - Starting next week, I think its possible for me to walk 3 times during the week and then once on the weekend. That's doable.

2. Start working out - My ass is now back to flabby and the small amount of muscle definition that I had in my arms is gone. I've found some great references for pregnancy workouts on Pinterest and its time to put those to good use.

3. Finish bedroom collage - I've been meaning to make a collage for our bedroom since about October when we closed on the house. I have the wooden plaques, paint and pictures.

4. Get the baby's room cleared out - I know we still have a while until it actually has to be ready, but there is a bunch of shit in there. After the rummage this weekend it will be pretty cleared out though. I just know that as soon as we find out what Jellybean is, I'm gonna want to get to decorating. Thats just how I am.

5. Evaluate our budget - I set up a trial budget for us for the month of May. I think it went pretty well. I just need to go back through our spending and make sure we stuck to it and if any changes need to be made.

6. Have a pool day with my mom - Her apartment complex has a really nice pool area. Last year she moved in the first week of August and by the time she got settled in we were out of time to enjoy the pool

 

 

May Goals

1. Create a Budget - I created a trial budget so I accomplished this one.
2. Walk at least 4 times every week - This was a big fat fail. I walked maybe 4 times the whole month. Womp womp womp.

3. Get rummage stuff together - This was done. I'll probably do a walk thru tonight and tomorrow to make sure I didn't miss anything that we don't use anymore, but its done for the most part.

4. Get my office in working order - This is done for the most part. My desk is now visible so that's an accomplishment in itself

5. Read a book - My Kindle has become nothing but a place to put my phone and hasn't moved in months... still. I think I read a few pages of What To Expect When You'r Expecting. I'm not exaggerating when I say "few" because it couldn't have been more than 3.

6. Bridal Shower Invitations - I got these designed, ordered and handed off to the Maid of Honor. I blogger-failed and didn't take a picture of the final product though.
7. Spring clean my kitchen - I cleaned it a couple times, but I didn't like get down on my hands and knees or anything. It just isn't going to happen.

 

So I was 4 for 7 on May goals. It could be worse so I'll take it. Hopefully June is a little better and I come out 6 for 6.

 

Tomorrows post will be quite different than what you're use too. I get into some serious stuff. You've been warned.
 

Graffiti Run

When I signed up for the Graffiti Run back in April, I wasn't sure what to expect. I knew it would be a messy day and most likely tons of fun. I also thought me and the 2 girls I did this with would run the 5K. The combination of me getting knocked up and one of them just flat out not wanting too meant running was out. I know you can run while pregnant, but having never ran before, I didn't think now would be a good time to start. Turns out not running worked out for us. We noticed that the people who were running weren't as colorful after going through the color stations.

The night before we were all worried that we would be chilly during the walk. Sunday morning it was supposed to be 64 degrees and this girl packed a tank top and shorts, forgetting that I live in Indiana where the weather is bipolar. We lucked out though. Not sure what the actual temp was that morning, but the sun was out and shining the entire time. At 8:40 the 9:00 race started gathering by the start line. Once 9 am hit, they let waves go every 10 minutes. They had color stations set up every 1K. When we went through the orange station, we just walked normally with our arms up right down the middle of the path. When we got out of it, we barely had anything on us. We knew we had to get creative about it when we got to the next station. We saw a pink cloud up ahead and got excited. The game plan for the remaining color stations was to alternate between to walk on the sides of the path... left through one, right through the next... and spinning while doing so to make sure our backs also got the goods. Ooooh did it work.

 

 

If you think we had a lot of color, you should have seen the volunteers working the color stations.  By the time we got to the blue station, the volunteers looked like smurfs. Each participant got a color packet to throw at the end. I crossed the finish line behind one of the girls I was with. She threw her purple packet straight up and it landed right on my head.

Rockin a Kelly Osbourne do. The front doesn't look too bad... but the top was a completely different story...

I really didn't think I'd get that shit off my scalp, which would have been bad given the fact that I had a baby shower to attend 2 hours after this photo was taken. Even more concerning was my green armpit. I had to scrub that until it hurt.

All in all, it was a BLAST! There is similar run in September that we're considering doing, Color Me Rad.

Now to tackle the day on minimal sleep. I'm a genius that stayed up until midnight watching the first game of the college softball world series. It didn't get done until 12... so, today will be fun.

Weekend Recap!

Weekends go by wayyyy to fast for my liking. Why can't all weekends be 3 day weekends? Who actually works on Fridays? I know I try not too. This one was pretty busy, which might be why it flew by me. My social life enjoys weekends like this because it generally means I get to see a lot of my friends or family. My to-do list hates it though. Whatev.

Friday night when I got off work, one of my cousins stopped by for a few hours. I hadn't seen her in a month or two and it was time for a good heart to heart about some things. We didn't solve the worlds problems, but we made some progress haha. After I headed over to my Gram's house where another cousin was visiting for the weekend. Friday was my only chance to see her so we all ate dinner and just sat around joking and laughing. I peaced out shortly after they broke the Captain Morgan out of the cabinet. Not gonna lie, I took a sniff of one of their drinks to tide me over. It helped a little.

Saturday morning was a lazy one. I woke up around 7 absolutely STARVING. I quickly solved that problem then went back to sleep for a couple hours.  After a couple more hours of snoozin, Danny and I got up and got ready for the day since we only had a few hours to spend together. We had a lunch date and visited his dad. After that, I packed my bags to head to Indy with my BFF Rachael to pick up our Graffiti Run packets, which took for-freaking-ever. We stood in front of a family with two toddler girls who screamed bloody murder about every 20 minutes. So that was fun, you know, espeically for a woman who is 10 weeks pregnant and already nervous about her parenting skills. After we got our packets we headed to my mom's apartment where we were staying all night. We ate dinner at the Stacked Pickle. Its a bar type atmosphere, but also family friendly. It was pretty good. Shortly after dinner our other friends arrived and we had a blast sitting around the living room. It was almost like we were reliving senior year. I loved it and I know my mom did too.

Sunday we were up bright and early, 7 is bright and early for a Sunday, to head to the State Fairgrounds. It was paaaacked but everyone was so excited. I now get what I've been reading about marathons. There is something in the air and the excitement is contagious. Even for a 5k. More on the Graffiti Run tomorrow... I do have a sneak peak though.

Afterwards we all raced back home since we had graduation parties and a baby shower to attend. Another cousin of mine is pregnant and due at the end of July so her mom and friends threw her a baby shower yesterday. She's having a girl and all the cute little outfits made me forget about the drama queens at the packet pick up the day before. After the shower, I came home and crashed. My back hurt, I was tired, my head hurt from wearing the Graffiti Run sweatband all morning and I wasn't doing crap the rest of the day or night. It was glorious too. I caught the season premiere of Real Housewives of New Jersey. The drama just intensifies every. single. season. And it sucks me right in.

Now I'm off to kick Monday's ass.